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Thursday, June 01, 2006
"life is short..."tat was i always told myself...i always aim to live my life to do wat i wan just be positive...maybe tat wat makes mi a hacker?hmmm... i dunno...however tings tat happened in my life can't be hack...problems after problems arise... to the extend tat i can't even handle anymore...im tired... both physically n mentally...but i wanna help so so so badly...im at lost... i felt bad...cos after i heard the news... i coulden hold back my tears when i should be the want consoling him... but it the other way round...he sound so strong n told mi he is totally fine...im such a horrible friend=''(are u really?pls tell mi if u not k...i wanna be the wan supporting u...seriously... i felt i had enough hurdler in my life already...some i didn't even manage to slove yet... but it keeps coming...however... tis is big... i didn't even know where to start?i've notice ppl around mi r all sick...why?serious i know im nuts... but i want to be the wan tat is sick...cos i dun wanna be the wan tat felt sad n sorry for them...cos i can't take the heartaching pressure alone... cos the impact was huge...it equally as pain as the sickness they are suffering...maybe tat explain why people always wanna die 1st before their love ones? i once told a friend...i wanna die before my dog... was it silly?he reply was like no... =)cos sometimes when i told ppl abt it... ppl will laugh at mi to thn extent of, i dun feel like telling anyone abt it...becos i will be making a laughing stock out of myself...but when certain tings happened to u...seriously u really hope to die 1st before anyone...for the 2nd time...i broke down infront of so many ppl...i hope not many saw...im just not strong... damn...just coulden hold back when the gals start to ask wat happened... and boom... i bust...mad silly jasmine cry as well... sorrisilly gal dun even know wat going on n she cry wif mi='')tears jus roll like mad...during the whole sip lect...bust even more in the toilet... damn if he gonna read tis post he gonna felt darn bad...but hey "H" im fine already...cos now i have to be strong in order to support u rite?all of us r gonna be behind u n hold on to u real strong if u fall...and u jolly well tell mi if u wasn't feeling well ok!it gonna pissed mi off real bad if u gonna hid anyting frm mi again>.<"u gonna be better...gonna be fine...gonna be ur old back self^.^i just know u will...
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